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Acceptance — MISSION: SELF CARE

Monday, March 30 (Day 5) => I realized today that a key to my stress is that I’ve never fully accepted the permanence of my husband’s struggles. It’s somehow stuck in my head that because he’s not where he was, then he’s “OK” and our life should work like everyone else’s. But that’s not so. […]

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Who Told You That’s the Way It Should Be? — MISSION: SELF-CARE

Sunday, March 30 (Day 4) “Who told you that’s the way it should be? Who told you that’s what you’re supposed to do?” The facilitator’s words pierced me to the core. Where DID all the false beliefs come from about what we’re supposed to be or do or say? The answer is… from our culture […]

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Living Elsewhere — MISSION: SELF-CARE

Saturday, March 28 (Day 3) => “Addiction is a life lived elsewhere.” That one hit hard today. When we are afraid to live in our own bodies, to embrace our own emotions—whether pleasant or unpleasant, to live in the moment—whether a joyful one or a sorrowful one, to take responsibility for the consequences of our […]

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Coming Home — MISSION: SELF-CARE

DAY TWO – FRIDAY, MARCH 27 I went to the first day of a weekend retreat at Hazelden about “Healing From Within.” I’m not an addict or an alcoholic, yet I mirror every behavior and thinking pattern of one – I just don’t pick up a drink. I’ve learned a lot about the “wounded child” […]

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Letting Go — MISSION: SELF CARE (Day One)

Thursday, April 26 => It felt good to sleep in today, my first day of a one-month medical leave, but it was strange as well. I didn’t have to call in sick, since all the arrangements were made. No one was expecting me. Today, I don’t have to answer to or be there for anyone. […]

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Hitting the Wall

A few weeks ago, I hit a wall. An emotional wall. A spiritual wall. A wall that I finally can’t knock down in my own power. My counselor recognized it and blew the whistle—game over, she said. It’s time to do something different. She recommended a month of medical leave to take care of myself. […]

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God Loves Us In Our Rebellion

My voice had turned from anger to desperation. “Katelyn, honey, please come out if you’re hiding. Mommy and Daddy are really scared. Katelyyynnnn!” Twenty-five minutes into a family hike, Katelyn had decided she was tired and wanted to go back. I asked her to rest on a rock with her dad while her brother and […]

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Fear or Trust — Which will win you over?

My 7-year-old daughter has had one mission on her mind for months – to convince me to let her get her ears pierced. I finally agreed last week to offer my permission, but with one caveat… she had to let us pull out a stubborn baby tooth that was causing the permanent tooth to grow […]

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Who’s in control here, anyway?

Some of you have probably heard this story (or a version of it) — I first heard it at a twelve-step recovery meeting, but its lesson is so important, it bears repeating: Jimmy was a young caterpillar who lived in a beautiful, lush garden.  One day, a caterpillar friend visited from another garden.  “Jimmy!” the […]

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